'You turned in the light, your eyes seeking your name'
Reading corner Happenstance by Rita Dove
When you appeared it was as if
magnets cleared the air.
I had never seen that smile before
or your hair, flying silver. Someone
waving goodbye, she was silver, too.
Of course you didn’t see me.
I called softly so you could choose
not to answer—then called again.
You turned in the light, your eyes
seeking your name.
Healing notes
I pulled out a card from my Goddess Oracle deck - Maeve. She is a celtic goddess of the womb and women's cycles. It felt too apt that I pulled this card in the middle of my cycle. But when I dove deep into the stories that existed about her, I was intrigued. On the card it read: Honor the cycles of your body, energy levels and emotions.
This is something I have grown to do over the years. Doesn't mean that the moments of rest, calmness and quiet I gift myself are free of guilt. Which is why I found Maeve to be particularly powerful for me during this time. One of the readings about her said: There are times when you feel isolated and shy. Your body, too, goes through pronounced cycles and changes. Celebrate these rhythms, and embrace them as the essence of the lifeblood that courses through you!
The card speaks about the cyclic nature of life in general. A pattern, I suppose. One my body had too. I walked with extra focus on my aching feet and wondered, is this part of a process too? The pain had peaked after a long period of calm. I have moved away from a fast life for a while now, but I think there is something about being connected to certain aspects of work that demand a response far more than I find myself able to.
In times like now, when we are required to respond in so many active and passive ways to the destruction taking place all around us, I held onto the wisdom in this card a bit more tightly than I would have. There was almost a intuitive need for me to hear that my body's wisdom is what I need to pay attention to at the moment. One of the troubles of deep diving into the medical system is that doctors often have you second guessing your own body. "That blood clot is nothing", "Feet pain is normal" and the list goes on. So how then do I know when to rest? When to work? When to travel? Is this all arbitrary? Sometimes to be honest, it really is. But one of the wonderful things I have indeed learnt is to listen to my body a bit more. Flying late in the night after a long day? No scheduled plans for the next two days. Now this isn't of course possible all the time. I have incrementally reduced my travels - as a way to aid my body more - because it feels travel puts a lot of pressure on my body. But I know we don't all have this choice, heck I don't have this choice all the time. It made me think what would Maeve say to those of us who cannot tune into the body? Who know their body is asking for rest but need to meet a deadline? (Me on so many days) When your body is anxious and tightening, what is it saying actually?
Listening to the body feels both easy and difficult for me. I just wish in honour of Maeve, you are able to rest, if you wish. Be, if you need. Do, as you need. Scream, as you wish. Discover a way to hold the multitudes within the body and find abundance there.
[P.s This in particular was a wonderful reading about Maeve. And as a recommendation: one of the best Tarot newsletters is by Syar and I think you should read them for the way they bring together all the wonder and reflection of life.]
Creative experiments
Crochet Mini Heart Pattern
This was such a fun pattern to learn. I am making many many of these. The full pattern is available here.
Also learning magic ring was the most fun thing. Highly recommend learning this because it makes so many patterns amazing!
Dear you,
I hope you are doing well in times of viruses and violence.
Stay safe and fed, and of course wash hands <3
Love, kindness and warmth,
Nidsitis
'I’ve been circling for thousands of years and I still don’t know: Am I a falcon, a storm, or a great song?' - Rainer Maria Rilke