'Why not live each day as if it were the first'
May you have a week of many firsts <3
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Imaginary Conversation by Linda Pastan
You tell me to live each day as if it were my last. This is in the kitchen where before coffee I complain of the day ahead—that obstacle race of minutes and hours, grocery stores and doctors. But why the last? I ask. Why not live each day as if it were the first— all raw astonishment, Eve rubbing her eyes awake that first morning, the sun coming up like an ingénue in the east? You grind the coffee with the small roar of a mind trying to clear itself. I set the table, glance out the window where dew has baptized every living surface.
Healing notes
I am writing today from the train while I travel towards huge changes in my life. Shifting cities is hard but sometimes nothing else feels right. When I had turned to the tarot many months ago while contemplating this plan, I had received the card The Hangman. The perspective shift my life has seen since has been enormous. I know this is just the beginning. The beginning of reordering my life. A new start to re-looking at my life as a whole - without compartments and divisions. More wholesome. Less work and life balance talk and more a full life.
Beginnings make me feel hopeful, excited and enthusiastic about the things that life holds for me and ideas of how I imagine these next few months will go. The insight I will receive about myself and the world is quite a learning curve. It’s both scary and exciting.
I imagined myself crying because of all the goodbyes at the end. Yet my heart is heavy and I am thinking fondly of everyone in one of my homes. <3
A big part of this move is to focus on healing while enjoying all that I am passionate about. Sometimes I forget to do that in the hurry of deadlines, in the midst of chasing ideas or work I don’t want or need. It is a hard pattern to fight but resisting seems essential to me at this point.
I just have a question as I sign off today. Do you ever feel like your life is on a trajectory which doesn’t appeal to you? How do you fix it?
Food experiments
Unfortunately the photo I took of this beautiful, absolutely delicious cookie is MIA from my phone. Oops. I baked this beauty with my sister D and I was in heaven. It was baked for gifts and I had a hard time parting with them. This recipe we followed is from Smitten Kitchen!
Butter Chocolate Chunk Shortbread
1 cup plus 2 tablespoons (9 ounces or 255 grams) salted butter, cold, cut into small pieces
1/2 cup (100 grams) granulated sugar
1/4 cup (50 grams) light brown sugar - We used coconut sugar
2 1/4 cups (295 grams) all-purpose flour
170 grams dark chocolate, chopped (you want chunks)
1 teaspoon vanilla essence.
Beat the butter and sugars together until light and fluffy. Add flour and mix until combined. Add chocolate chunks. Mixture will be crumbly.
Make a log out of the batter and put it in a parchment paper/foil. Cover it fully and chill until firm. We left it overnight.
When ready, preheat oven at 170 degrees and cut the log into thin (not too thin) piece of dough. Place it on the tray and bake until edges are brown/golden.
Eat with anything, especially in a train with two meowing cats. :)
Dear you,
I have moved houses and am a bit anxious still.
It is a huge change for me and the two cats. Let's hope we all settle down fine.
Love, kindness and warmth,
Nidsitis
'I’ve been circling for thousands of years and I still don’t know: Am I a falcon, a storm, or a great song?' - Rainer Maria Rilke