'We’ll both end. We’ll both begin.'
I hope you have company in these last few weeks of the year that makes you feel safe <3
Reading corner
Our story
by William Stafford
Remind me again—together we
trace our strange journey, find
each other, come on laughing.
Some time we’ll cross where life
ends. We’ll both look back
as far as forever, that first day.
I’ll touch you—a new world then.
Stars will move a different way.
We’ll both end. We’ll both begin.
Remind me again.
[Source: https://wordsfortheyear.com/2018/07/06/our-story-by-william-stafford/]
Healing notes
I had a bit of a breakdown in therapy recently. I was feeling a lack of comfort and safety. My therapist very wisely reminded me like I provide comfort to others, others can also comfort me when I am low. This though not-mind-bogglingly-
QWE;./ghtnew advice had me realise a few things. 1) I believe in community care very intensely. I wish we all would care for each other. 2) I need to accept help as much as I give it. It might be hard for me but it needs to be done. 3) Comfort and safety are hard for me because of my experiences. My body tells me everything is unsafe. But this wiring, like everything else can be changed.
These tiny things changed my thought process this week. I have always told myself I cannot force myself to always be perfect about my care. I will slip up sometimes and others will step in. Not so hard right? Yet so difficult to accept. For instance, I might sometimes not be able to care for my kittens. I must then accept the help provided to care for them. It is important in our collective healing. And after all, collective healing is where our care practises must be. I say this because I have witnessed the power of it.
I wish you all community where you find comfort and feel safe. Where care is given and received. Where you find healing. If not immediately, then it is my wish for the year ahead. <3
Food experiments
My food habits have changed so much. You wouldn't believe it. I doubt if the people who have witnessed this change believe it. Palak features heavily on my diet for many reasons at the moment, one of them being its easily available. That aside, I am really enjoying it in all its forms!
Palak paneer
Three bunches of palak
One onion
250 gms of paneer
Pepper
Salt
Garlic
Ginger
Heat water in a bowl. Soak the palak (cut if needed) in it for a few minutes. Then remove it and cleanse it with cold water.
Once done, put the palak into a mixie. Add three cloves of garlic, two pieces of ginger cut up. Blend it into a smooth paste.
In a pan, roast some cut up onions in oil with some jeera (cumin). Once brown, add the palak puree. mix well. After this add the cut up pieces of paneer. Cook for a few minutes on low flame. The paneer will become soft and the palak will taste cooked. Add salt and pepper. Mix well.
Serve with rice or roti. I ate it with lots of pav! :)
Dear you,
It has been a very cold week and the cats are taking a little time adjusting. They cuddle more
and that is of course a great thing. Hope your feet and ears are cosy <3
Love, kindness and warmth,
Nidsitis
'I’ve been circling for thousands of years and I still don’t know: Am I a falcon, a storm, or a great song?' - Rainer Maria Rilke