'Now I am becoming my own tree'
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Love is all I have to share at the moment!
Reading corner
Wild Oats
by W S Merwin
Watching the first sunlight
touch the tops of the palms
what could I ask
All the beads have gone
from the old string
and the string does not miss them
The daughters of memory
never pronounce
their own names
In the language of heaven
the angel said
go make your own garden
I dream I am here
in the morning
and the dream is its own time
Looking into the old well
I see my own face
then another behind it
There I am
morning clouds
in the east wind
No one is in the garden
the autumn daisies
have the day to themselves
All night in the dark valley
the sound of rain arriving
from another time
September when the wind
drops and to us it seems
that the days are waiting
I needed my mistakes
in their own order
to get me here
Here is the full moon
brining us
silence
I call that singing bird my friend
though I know nothing else about him
and he does not know I exist
What is it that I keep forgetting
now I have lost it again
right here
I have to keep telling myself
why I am going away again
I do not seem to listen
In my youth I believed in somewhere else
I put faith in travel
now I am becoming my own tree
Healing notes
Exhausted. Fatigued. Sleepy.
Three words that describe my past week or so. I have spent more hours sleeping than doing anything else. This leads to a bit of angst and anxiety. Am I working enough? Am I doing enough? Should I be eating the things I am? Will this nausea go away anytime soon?
Questions whose answers are all valid I am sure but questions I ask myself very often. I am not sure these are gentle enough questions I should be asking myself. I have been trying to jot down all the things I have been doing to remind myself some weeks are slow. Some weeks require more rest and sleep. This doesn't mean I do less of all the things I need to do.
Have you had weeks like this? Does it scare you?
Sleep is such a good thing for the body but rest is a whole other ball game. I used to think they were the same thing till illness became a part of my life. Till I realised not all sleep is restful.
How do you rest? How do you calm the capitalist demons about productivity as you listen to your body? I would love to know so I can talk to my demons too. Till then, I hope the sun isn't too intense in your lives and you are getting the necessary rest.
Food experiments
These days I live for my weekly food experiment. Exhaustion has become such a dear part of my life that I live for making something interesting for this newsletter. Call me obsessed with this. <3
I have been craving some ready to eat food. And this seemed like a great idea!
Aloo wrap
For the stuffing
Three aloos
Five pieces of salami
Palak or anything green :D
Cheese
Sauces
Tomato sauce
Green chilli sauce
Mustard
For the wrap
Roti or any wrap you might have
Boil the aloo in a pressure cooker. Meanwhile cook the salami and the palak together in oil or butter.
Once done, mash the aloo and add it to the salami and palak. Add turmeric, salt and chilli powder.
Heat the roti and keep aside. Add the sauces to the roti. Then place the stuffing in it. Top it up with cheese.
Once done, roll the wrap and you are ready!!
Dear you,
I have been sending these later than usual. Sorry! Been a bit exhausted
and allowed myself to rest. I hope you all have been doing okay.
I also want to thank all of you who replied to the last newsletter. Was really helpful <3
Love, kindness and warmth,
Nidsitis
'I’ve been circling for thousands of years and I still don’t know: Am I a falcon, a storm, or a great song?' - Rainer Maria Rilke