'Everything desirable is here already in abundance'
Reading corner
A Dark Thing Inside The Day
by Linda Gregg So many want to be lifted by song and dancing,
and this morning it is easy to understand.
I write in the sound of chirping birds hidden
in the almond trees, the almonds still green
and thriving in the foliage. Up the street,
a man is hammering to make a new house as doves
continue their cooing forever. Bees humming
and high above that a brilliant clear sky.
The roses are blooming and I smell the sweetness.
Everything desirable is here already in abundance.
And the sea. The dark thing is hardly visible
in the leaves, under the sheen. We sleep easily.
So I bring no sad stories to warn the heart.
All the flowers are adult this year. The good
world gives and the white doves praise all of it.
Healing notes
In my kindness journal from 2017, I have written a short letter to my self. A practise my therapist encourages (I say encourage because I wrote to myself a lot over the years, and still do) me to do often. There is a line which says, "You make friends. You lose friends. You have connections. You have loss. Everything is okay." Even as I grow older, I feel like these words continue to mean a lot to me. I was in 2017 writing to my six-year-old self that felt alone, lonely and without friends. To rewrite a dominant narrative of sadness I have of my childhood. That I often did turn to books for comfort. To say that books were home. Like they are even now. In times of distress, I turn to words. Poetry. All of which are 'not a hiding place' but 'a finding place'.
So I suppose I did have friends. Imaginary ones. Bookish ones. Non-book ones. Yet, I feel often like large parts of my childhood were absorbed in feeling lonely. Part of healing is to shift some of these narratives, no? In some part therapy helps me. In others I find writing to myself is effective. I find it easier to forgive myself, comfort myself, and be there for myself in this manner. Because, 'Everything desirable is here already in abundance'.
Have you tried something else to comfort a younger you? What helps you?
Food experiments
My quick meals continue and this was such pleasant meal to have.
Veggies with bread
Palak
Ponnaganti koora
Mushroom
Capsicum
Cook the palak and ponnaganti koora together in oil for a few minutes.
Add the capsicum and fry. After a while add the mushrooms and cover it up.
After five minutes, open up and add salt and whatever seasoning you wish to do. Eat with whatever you wish! :)
Too simple no? But really tasty mix of vegetables.
Dear you,
I have been doing work and for some reason, this song has consumed my presence.
Hope you enjoy it as well: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pyJChP-mzqw
Love, kindness and warmth,
Nidsitis
'I’ve been circling for thousands of years and I still don’t know: Am I a falcon, a storm, or a great song?' - Rainer Maria Rilke